On the training front, I ran 6km last Thursday and have basically done very little since. After my 15km on Monday followed by my big spill on Wednesday, my knee & ankle needed some rest. So, rest I did and I basically haven't gone back out there despite intentions to run 5 short runs in a row this week. I need to scale back on the long SRs because I'm simply over doing it.
Yes, I realize it sounds like an excuse. I isn't. I hope it isn't. My body just isn't responding as well as I'd like and believe me, it pisses me off. Why the F did I let myself get SO out of shape after the last season ended?! Stupid.
But I'm in a bit of a pickle now... remember when I went on and on about walking in the Weekend to End Women's Cancers? And then when I said I had chosen the half-marathon over the walk? Well, I don't know what to do. My gut (and my guilt) is telling me to WALK. What's more important? Personal best (not that the race would be but you know what I mean) or bonding, inspiration & just good ol' giving. A big part of me thinks that I just won't be ready in time for the run and that's really okay. I can run another race in the spring or I can get out there and do what I can. So maybe I'm trying to talk myself into doing the walk knowing it may really screw my body for what I've been working towards as of late? Sigh. I really don't know what to do. I want to walk because I want to be a part of that movement and it is so important for me to walk because my MIL doesn't have that chance. I never want M to go through what D did when his mom passed away. I want to run to prove to myself that I can do it again and that I can achieve that goal. I want M to be proud of me for committing and being active.
I have no idea what to do.
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