Random musings & rants of a girl who is attempting to do and have it all while raising her little person.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

February Goals

Here we go again!

1. Finish the hall closet renovation.

2. Purge, organize & clean the guest room and start making it actually look like a guest room.

3. Maintain current weight (135lbs) and maybe even drop another lb or two.

4. Bring M's baby book up-to-date.

5. Spend more time with Cear by giving her a good walk each evening.

6. Get out for a run with M in the jogging stroller at least 2x a week.

7. Find a nanny or caregiver for M for when I go back to work.

8. Finalize my start date back at work for April.

9. Renew my Canadian passport, order Max's Canadian passport AND replace my lost British passport.

10. Finalize the date & theme for M's 1st birthday party and start working on invites.

Of course, there is a bit of carry over from January like the hall closet renovation as well as avoiding alcohol during the week. I'm slowly trying to get back into working mode by cutting out alcohol during the week, getting to bed earlier and waking at a decent time, which is rather easy with a baby who currently likes to get up around 6am. Should make those 5-5:30am starts a bit easier come April!

Lots to do in a short month!

Meal Plan for the Week of January 31st

We cheated and had take-out tonight. Last night's birthday celebrations lead to hangovers today, which meant I didn't get out to do a grocery shop. My list is prepared and I'll be hitting the store tomorrow.

Here are the 5 meals we'll be enjoying this week:
  • Chicken breasts with red Thai curry sauce (Fine Cooking) served with steamed carrots & broccoli and rice.
  • Meat pies (from the fabulous Herrington's Quality Butchers in Port Perry) with mashed potatoes & peas.
  • Pasta with sausage, olives, sun-dried tomoatoes & cream with salad on the side (another Fine Cooking recipe).
  • Baked potato and leek soup with cheddar & bacon (yet another Fine Cooking recipe) with salad and/or buns.
  • Pork cutlets with orange-dijon rosemary sauce (um, yeah... another FC recipe) with potatoes and carrots.
  • Homemade Hawaiian pizza with salad.
My shopping list isn't that extensive so let's hope I can bring this one in under $100 this week.

January 31, 2010


Happy birthday to ME! I had a fantastic time celebrating my birthday and was truly spoiled. I was surrounded by family & friends and had a weekend that made me feel loved.

It's time to wrap up January and move into the 2nd month of 2010. First, an update on the goals I set for myself earlier this month:

1. Lose a few lbs by the end of the month? Success! I'm thrilled that I managed to lose 10lbs by cutting out alcohol during the week, eating better and exercising more.

2. Cut out alcohol during the week? Success! I only cheated twice (going to a Leafs game and an early birthday celebration) but I'm glad I did it.

3. Use my Wii Fit 5 times this month? Success! I used it a lot more often and although I've slacked the last 2 weeks, I'm ready to start the Wii Active 30 Day Challenge tomorrow. I've also got my fancy new jogging stroller and I'm hoping to get a warm & cozy muff early this week so M & I can pound the pavement together.

4. Finish the hall closet renovation? Um... well... not really a success. I've got all the shelves ripped out but I still have to sand & paint. It's hard to work on this when it's down the hall from M's room because it's when he's napping that I have the time to do the work.

5. Get 30 loads out of a container of laundry detergent? Success! Seems like such a silly thing but I was determined to 'wash smarter' as I feel like we're always being wasteful. We use too much, which isn't good for the clothes or machine and it means we're spending unnecessary dollars.

I'm pleased with the results and I know that I need to set mini goals for myself each month. It's the only way I seem to stay on track and follow through with things. I'll be working on my list of new goals for February, which I'll post tomorrow.

Lastly...

D surprised me with a weekend in NYC for my birthday. I absolutely love New York and I can't wait to share it with D. We're going at the end of March for 3 days and I can't think of a better way to finish off my maternity leave. The only part (or person!) missing will be M. He'll be staying home so D & I can enjoy a few days to ourselves.

I think it's too easy to become complacent in a relationship, especially once a baby is involved, and you forget that you need to remember why you fell in love in the first place. It becomes easier to nag & complain instead of nurturing & encouraging. Amidst all the day to day things like work, maintaining a home and generally living life, you tend to go about your days without doing or saying the little things that keep you feeling close. I think D and I have both realized that relationships DO take work (or more work than we've been putting forth lately) and that we need to take time for ourselves. This trip to NYC is going to be a fabulous way for us to enjoy each other's company and celebrate all the good & luck in our life.

That said... I'm already dreading the thought of leaving M behind!

2010 is off to a great start and January was a great month. I'm so lucky in life & love and I truly couldn't have asked for a better start to my 33rd year.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Last Weigh-In for January 2010


I lost another 3.1lbs! Yay!

I started at 144.8lbs and currently weight 135.1lbs, which is a loss of almost 10lbs! Double yay!

My goal for January was to lose a few lbs by the end of the month. I started eating better (more often with less snacking), cut out alcohol during the week and greatly increased my water consumption. I got more active using my Wii and even went out for a run or two. Admittedly, I have done next to nothing active during the last two weeks but I stuck with the eating. I'll be back on it come Monday and I'm really hoping to get our with M using my new jogging stroller.

I think this is the motivation I needed to push me further. It isn't so much as losing more weight but rather feeling fit & healthy. I'm turning 33 (gulp!) this weekend and this is the best gift I could have given to myself.


Thursday, January 28, 2010

Chicken Saute with Snow Peas & Teriyaki Pan Sauce


Super easy to make and really tasty... definitely an easy weeknight dinner. Egg noodles, rice noodles or rice pair well with this sauce.


Chicken Saute with Snow Peas & Teriyaki Pan Sauce
*Serves 2

2 boneless & skinless chicken breasts cut into 3/4" chunks
Kosher salt and freshly ground black pepper
2 tsp. cornstarch
1/4 cup water or homemade or lower-salt canned chicken broth
2 Tbs. peanut oil or vegetable oil
5oz. fresh snow peas, trimmed
One 1-inch chunk fresh ginger, peeled and cut into thin matchsticks (about 2 Tbs.)
1 clove garlic, minced
1/4 cup sake or mirin (sweet rice wine)
3 Tbs. soy sauce
2 Tbs. rice-wine vinegar
1 Tbs. honey
2 Tbs. crunchy bean sprouts, such as soy or lentil, washed well, or 2 Tbs. chopped fresh cilantro

Season the chicken with salt and pepper.

In a small bowl, blend the cornstarch into the water or broth.

Heat 2 tsp. of the oil in a medium saute pan over medium-high heat. Add the snow peas and cook, stirring frequently, until they're slightly browned and softened but still crisp, 2-3 minutes. Transfer to a medium bowl. Heat another 1 Tbs. oil in the pan and add the chicken. When the underside of the chicken has turned deep golden brown (after about 1 minute), turn it with a metal spatula. Turn occasionally for even browning until almost cooked through, 3-5 minutes. Add the chicken to the bowl of peas.

Heat the remaining 1 tsp. oil in the pan. Add the ginger and cook until fragrant, about 1 minute. Reduce the heat to medium, add the garlic, and cook until fragrant, about 30 seconds. Add the sake or mirin, soy sauce, vinegar, honey, and the cornstarch mixture. Use a wooden spoon to scrap up any browned bits in the pan and blend them into the sauce. Bring to a boil, reduce the heat to medium low and toss the chicken & snow peas into the sauce. Season with salt and pepper to taste. Serve immediately, sprinkled with the bean sprouts or cilantro.

*Chicken Saute with Snow Peas, Maryellen Driscoll, Fine Cooking #53

Hate. Cleaning.

I love a clean house but I hate cleaning. I especially hate how I never feel driven or inspired to clean until the evening... the late evening. It's almost 11pm and I'm flipping between vacuuming and mopping (well, steam cleaning) the floors.

Ugh.

I can't really be bothered doing this sort of stuff during the day and there is always that little part of me that's petrified it will wake M during a nap. Now that he's almost mobile (backwards only so far), I'm going to have to be cleaning these floors a lot more often. Between a constantly shedding dog, wet paw prints and human foot traffic dirtying the dark wood floors, I feel like they're never clean.

I also always seem to need an incentive to clean. It's my birthday this weekend so my parents will be babysitting M while we're out. While I know they're fully aware of the filthy state I have been known to live in, I need the place to be clean. We'll also likely be coming back to our house with friends after dinner out so the place needs to be in good shape. So, I'm spending my Thursday night (when I should be watching Grey's Anatomy) cleaning & tidying.

I just hope we can keep it that clean for 2 more sleeps.

PS - Cleaning burns calories, right? Tomorrow is my last weigh-in of the month. I've done next to nothing during the past 2 weeks yet I've eaten relatively well so we'll see... Double ugh.

Maple-Glazed Ribs

This recipe was adapted from Jean Pare's Company's Coming series. It's taken from "The Beef Book" but I always use pork ribs.

When choosing ribs, always opt for pork back ribs. The meat is plentiful and naturally tender. It's worth the extra few dollars you'll spend on these ones over side ribs. Ribs can be time consuming to make but I really think it's worth it to boil them first, marinade overnight and grill on a barbeque.

Maple-Glazed Ribs

Pork back ribs (one rack typically serves 2 people)
1 medium onion, sliced
2 celery ribs, with leaves, coarsely chopped
10 whole black peppercorns
Water to cover

1 1/2 cups corn (or cane) syrup
2 Tbsp. maple syrup (or more)
1/4 cup apple cider vinegar
3 Tbsp. chili sauce (use a good quality sauce that is quite spicy)
1 small onion chopped
1 Tsp. Worcestershire sauce
3/4 Tsp. dry mustard
1/2 Tsp. salt
1/8 Tsp. pepper

Combine remaining 9 ingredients in medium bowl. Pour over ribs, turning to coat. Marinade over night and grill on barbeque

Alternatively, these can be back in a greased shallow roasting pan, uncovered, in a 325F oven for 30 minutes. Baste occasionally.

Place ribs, onion, celery and peppercorns in a Dutch oven. Cover with water and bring to a boil Cover, reduce heat and simmer for 1 1/2 hours until the ribs are tender. Remove ribs and pat dry with a paper towel. Discard liquid & vegetables. Arrange ribs in a Ziploc bag or shallow dish.

*Maple Short Ribs, The Beef Book, 2002

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Fast and Easy Pizza Crust


Okay, I'm pretty certain I'm the last person on earth to join the whole homemade pizza crust craze but I only recently made my own dough. It was one of those recipes I'd always flip by in one of my favourite cookbooks with thoughts of "I should do this for dinner one night" as I kept going.

It was so easy and delicious. We topped ours with crumbled Italian sausage, proscuitto, roasted red peppers, red onion, fresh basil & mozzarella and enjoyed it along with a simple arugula salad dressed in olive oil, red wine vinegar and freshly squeezed lemon.

Fast and Easy Pizza Crust

3/4 cup warm water
1 Tbsp. active dry yeast (1 pkg.)
1 Tsp. sugar
1 1/2 cups flour
1/4 Tsp. salt
1 Tbsp. yellow cornmeal
1 Tbsp. olive oil
Cornmeal to sprinkle

*I did 1 1/4 cups of white flour and 1/4 cup whole wheat flour.

Preheat oven to 450F. Lightly oil a 12" pizza pan.

In a small bowl, mix warm water, yeast and sugar together. Let sit until yeast activates, about 5 minutes.

In a large bowl, stir together flour, salt and cornmeal. Add yeast mixture and olive oil and knead to a smooth dough, about 10 minutes.

Sprinkle a work surface with cornmeal and roll dough into a 13" circle and place on pizza pan. Crimp edges and add your favourite toppings.

Bake for 10-15 minutes.

*Fast and Easy Pizza Crust, The Best of the Best and More, 1998

NOTE: The Best of Bridge cookbooks are amazing! I've never made a bad recipe. The recipes are always simple & straightforward using everyday ingredients. Highly recommend!

Waiting Patiently...

Or not so patiently...

I went back to the local drop-in yesterday and met up with a lot of caregivers I'd met last week. Apparently, word had spread that we're looking for a live-out nanny come April after I'd casually mentioned it to the woman who runs the centre last week. Well, I got a lead! One of the caregivers I'd met the week before said her sister is coming off a contract and looking for a new position. She took my name & number and now I'm waiting to hear from her.

I know she may not be 'the one' but I'm pleased to see the direction this is heading. The woman who runs the centre is able to give me a lot of feedback on the caregivers she sees and I get a bit more comfort knowing that someone 'knows' this person versus pulling a name from an ad off the Internet. Of course, I know this is also just the start of a long list of things to do from interviews to background checks to trial runs but at least it means we're on our way to finding care for M.

The centre I go to has a much higher ratio of caregivers:parents and in fact, I have only ever seen one other parent there. All of the nannies were very involved with their children and I was so impressed to see & feel the love between them. It was so evident that each of the children adored their caregiver and that those feelings were reciprocated. It gave me a lot of comfort to think that is the relationship M will hopefully have one day.

Don't get me wrong... I am absolutely torn about going back to work and leaving M in the care of someone else. I'm afraid that I'm going to miss moments & firsts with him or that our time together will be so short each evening. I'm worried that he won't get the care that I would give him despite best intentions & expectations.

But I also know that I NEED to go back to work. I need it for my sanity and to be a better mum. I need to get back into an adult environment where I'm valued, engaged & a part of a bigger goal. I need the routine, the pressure and stress of deadlines and the drive that work gives me.

These feelings of guilt are the worst. It doesn't matter which side of the fence I'm on because I'm always going to feel guilty. I'll spend my days at work thinking of M but if I didn't go back, I'd always be wondering 'what would I be working on' and that isn't right for me either. My only hope is that we find a fabulous caregiver who meshes with our family and loves M as much as we do. I think it's the only way this transition will be easy on any of us.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Meal Plan for Week of January 24th

We didn't end up having beef stew last week so that's on the plate for sometime this week. I tend to mix up the order of the meals according to time & taste so I haven't stuck to a plan yet. Here's what's on the plate for this week:

Sunday: Rigatoni with Homemade Meat Sauce

Monday: Classic but Quick Beef Stew

Tuesday: Alsatian Onion Tart with Arugula Salad

Wednesday: Chicken Saute with Snow Peas & Teriyaki Pan Sauce on Rice

Thursday: Homemade Italian Sausage, Proscuitto & Roasted Red Pepper Pizza with Arugula Salad

Friday: Maple-Glazed Pork Back Ribs with Mashed Potatoes & Zucchini

Saturday: Whatever I fancy because it's my birthday and we'll be out on the town!

Also, I've discovered that we are a $130/week grocery bill family. I went again with list in hand and spent just under $130. I'm okay with this number but working on some changes. I will shop at a more economical store next week and see how it differs. I'd also like to add in a second vegetarian meal each week to cut down on meat costs.

Stay tuned for recipe reviews! Once again, there's a few first timers on the list this week.

Bob's Your Uncle!


Another week...

Diet was alright last week but I fell off the wagon this weekend. We ate out a few times, ordered pizza and there was some wine in there.

I did a disastrously low amount of exercise last week. D bought Wii Active for me and I started the 30 Day Challenge on Friday. My thighs are still aching! We had a busy weekend with a sick dog & car shopping so I'm ashamed to admit that I didn't do a stitch of exercise.

BUT... that's all about to change! I'll be back on the Wii Active tomorrow and trying out my brand new Bob Revolution jogging stroller! I am so excited because this means I'll be able to run during the day and take M along with me. My Bob was a great early birthday gift!

I thought about weighing in tomorrow morning but I don't think I can handle the disappointment. I'm going to wait until Friday, which ultimately takes me to the end of my January goals.




Friday, January 22, 2010

And Another... Spiced Lentil Soup with Minted Yogurt


This was tonight's dinner and it was a nice change from our typical dish. We had garlic bread with it but it would be great with a salad and fresh rolls.

Spiced Lentil Soup with Minted Yogurt

4 oz. bacon (about 4 slices), cut into thin strips
2 Tbs. extra-virgin olive oil
1 large leek (white and light green parts only), cut in half, rinsed of grit, and finely diced
2 medium carrots, peeled and finely diced
1 rib celery, finely diced
Kosher salt and freshly ground black pepper
2 tsp. ground cumin
1 tsp. ground coriander
1 1/2 cups dried lentils, preferably French green (also called lentilles du Puy) although brown are fine, sorted through and rinsed
6 Tbs. chopped fresh cilantro
1 cup plain yogurt
2 Tbs. chopped fresh mint

Cook the bacon in the oil in a large saucepan or pot over medium heat, stirring occasionally, until it's brown and crisp, about 8 minutes. Using a slotted spoon, transfer the bacon to a plate lined with paper towels.

Add the leek, carrots, and celery to the pan, season with salt and pepper, and cook, stirring occasionally, until the vegetables soften and just start to brown, about 7 minutes. Stir in the coriander and cumin and cook for 30 seconds. Stir in the lentils and 5 cups of water and season with salt and pepper. Bring to a boil, reduce the heat to maintain a gentle simmer, cover, and cook until the lentils become tender but not mushy, about 45 minutes.

*At this point, I used my hand blender and pureed a good 1/2-3/4 of the soup.

Stir in 4 Tbs. of the cilantro and the reserved bacon. thing with water, if necessary, to get the consistency you like. Taste for salt and pepper.

In a small bowl, mix the yogurt with the remaining 2 Tbs. cilantro and the mint and season with salt.

Ladle the soup into serving bowls, top with a dollop of the yogurt and serve immediately.

*Spiced Lentil Soup with Minted Yogurt, Tony Rosenfeld, FC #62, Scott Phillips

Southwestern Chicken & Black Bean Stew

I made this last night and it was really tasty. I used chicken breasts instead of thighs and added a can of corn for additional flavour & texture. In lieu of the chipotle pepper, which I forgot to purchase, I used chipotle chili powder instead. Also, I didn't have beer on hand so I simply used chicken stock.

Southwestern Chicken & Black Bean Stew

2 Tbs. extra-virgin olive oil
3 thick slices bacon
6 bone-in, skinless chicken thighs (about 2 1/4lb), trimmed of large pieces of fat
Kosher salt and freshly ground black pepper
1 large yellow onion, diced
1 red bell pepper, cored, seeded, and finely diced
2 tsp. chili powder
1 tsp. ground cumin
3/4 cup beer
1 15 1/2 oz. can black beans, rinsed (about 2 cups)
1 dried chipotle (optional)
2 cups homemade or low-salt chicken broth; more if needed
1 lime
3 Tbs. chopped fresh cilantro leaves

*Sour cream, salsa, cheddar & avocado for garnish (optional)

Heat the oil in a large Dutch oven or heavy pot over medium heat. Add the bacon and cook until it renders much of its fat and crisps slightly, about 7 minutes. Transfer the bacon to a plate lined with paper towels.

Season the chicken well with salt and pepper. Add half the thighs to the pan and brown them well on both sides, 2 -3 minutes per side. Transfer to a different plate. Brown the remaining thighs and reserve with the rest.

*I did this same step with sliced chicken breast.

There should be 2-3 Tbs. fat left in the pan; if there's more, spoon out and discard the excess. Add the onion and bell pepper, season well with salt, and cook, stirring often, until the onion softens and caramelizes slightly, about 7 minutes. Raise the heat to high, add the chili powder and cumin, and cook, stirring, for 30 seconds. Add the beer and cook until it's almost completely reduced, about 3 minutes. Add the beans, the chipotle (if using), and the chicken broth. When the mixture comes to a boil, adjust the heat to maintain a simmer and cook for 5 minutes. Transfer 2 cups of the beans and broth (but not the chipotle) to a blender, puree, and then mix back into the rest of the broth.

*This is when I added in the can of corn.

Return the thighs to the pot, cover with the lid slightly ajar, and simmer until the chicken is cooked through (check by slicing through the bottom of one of the thighs to the bone), about 30 minutes. If the stew is too thick, thin it with more chicken broth. Discard the chipotle. Crumble the reserved bacon. Juice one half of the lime; cut the other half into wedges. Stir the bacon, lime juice and 2 Tbs. of the cilantro into the stew and season well with salt and pepper.

Serve immediately, ladling some of the beans and chicken into each bowl. Sprinkle each serving with the remaining cilantro and a small dollop of sour cream, salsa, cheddar and avocado (optional). Serve with the lime wedges.

*Southwestern Chicken & Black Bean Stew, Tony Rosenfeld, FC #56, Scott Phillips

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Tip of the Day


Save yourself time, money, disastrous repairs & quarrels with your significant other and invest in a hair catcher for your tub or shower drain. Seriously.

This will now be at the top of my idea list for what to give the new mother. Damn post-pregnancy hair loss!

Mama Bear

I had one of those moments last night as I got into bed after checking on M for the last time where I wondered when or how old he'll be when I don't *have* to look on him before I go to bed for the night. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love peeking in on him as he sleeps but I wondered if there is ever going to be a time when I don't. I then remembered how my dad always poked his head in my room before he went to bed for the night. Even when I was in my 20s (er, 30s) and staying at their house, he NEVER failed to peek in and say goodnight.

That's one of those things your parents do that you take for granted but love. I'd certainly notice if my dad didn't do that if I was sleeping at their house. It's also one of those things I know I'll always do for M. I don't know... it's like parenting comes full circle.

I just hope I can keep my little guy in footed pajamas until he's 18!

Has Anyone Seen My Motivation?


I seem to have lost it. I love how my weigh in seemed to give me the boost I needed to carry on yet I failed to follow through this week. I 'cheated' on my diet twice (popcorn one night and a burger with onion rings on the side the next) and have barely done any exercise. Since my slip ups, I have been very good with my diet and haven't strayed since. I really need to get back into the Wii or exercise habit SOON. I had hoped to get out for a run tonight but it's damn cold and that isn't helping matters at all.

I made the Campanelle with Sausage & Leeks dish last night and it was great. It was a nice & light pasta with lots of simple flavour. The best part is that there is very little prep and cooking time is kept to a minimum. Perfect for a weeknight dinner! Enjoy!

Campanell with Sausage & Leeks

Kosher salt
2 Tbs. extra-virgin olive oil
3/4 lb. sweet Italian sausage, casings removed
2 large leeks, trimmed, light green and white parts, cut into 1/2-inch pieces, washed well and drained
1 Tbs. finely chopped shallot
2 Tbs. unsalted butter
1 cup frozen young peas, defrosted and drained, or 1 cup fresh peas, blanched in boiling water for 2 minutes
1 cup lower-salt chicken broth
Freshly ground black pepper
1 lb. dried campanelly or other shaped, dried pasta
1/2 cup freshly grated Parmigiano-Reggiano; more for serving, if you like

Put a large pot of generously salted water on to boil.

In a large skillet, heat the olive oil over medium-high heat. Cook the sausage, breaking it up with the side of a metal spoon, until golden, about 5 minutes. Add the leeks and cook, stirring, until soft, about 8 minutes. Stir in the shallot and cook for 1 minute. Add 1 Tbs. of the butter, the peas and the broth. Heat to a boil, reduce the heat to medium low, and simmer gently for 5 minutes. Season with salt and pepper, cover the skillet, and set aside; keep warm.

Meanwhile, cook the campanelle, stirring occasionally, until al dente, about 12 minutes. Drain the pasta and return it to the pot over low heat. Add the sausage and leek sauce to the pasta and toss well. Remove the pot from the heat, add the remaining 1 Tbs. butter and the grated Parmigiano; toss well. Transfer to a warmed serving platter or individual bowls. Serve immediately, with more grated Parmigiano on the side, if using.

*Campanelle with Sausage & Leeks, Lidia Bastianich, FC #36

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

A Few Things...

Despite being so gung ho yesterday, I'm losing motivation because the Wii is B-O-R-I-N-G. Sigh.

I'm happy to say that I finally stepped out of my comfort zone and went to the parent drop-in centre at M's future school to meet other parents & caregivers as well as give M some much needed socialization with other little ones. I was so glad I went and walked out with one of those 'wish I'd done it sooner' feelings. M had a great time and really enjoyed all the chatter & singing. I'm going to make a point of going a few times a week. It's great for him, breaks up my day and I'm hoping it will help us find a great caregiver for M when I go back to work in April. I also signed M & I up for a baby story & sing class at the local library that starts at the end of this month. With any luck, all of this will help M be more comfortable in the company of others and perhaps not freak out when I leave the room.

Lastly, the pork scaloppini wasn't anything special. I can post the recipe for anyone who wants it but I think I'd only make it again with some tweaking (eliminate the sage OR incorporate a lesser amount into the glaze and perhaps add some cream to the glaze to make it a bit more rich & flavourful). I'll admit that I was in a rush to make it because D had to go out after dinner but I don't think that had much of an impact. Put it this way, we were both hungry a few hours later and the leftovers were plentiful.

Happy Tuesday!

Monday, January 18, 2010

Could This Be True?!

Did I actually lose 6.6lbs since starting my personal challenge? YES!

I weighed in this morning and I was down to 138.2lbs from 144.8lbs back on January 3rd. I am thrilled! I'm not feeling or seeing the difference yet but this is the push I need to keep at it.

I've been loosely following the Special K Challenge, which means breakfast & lunch are bowls of Special K. I add fruit to those meals and more often than not, I substitute a healthy lunch for one of the bowls of cereal. The key is actually having 3 meals a day, which for me is a huge thing. I've always been a bad 'all or nothing' eater where I eat one huge meal and then snack during the evening instead of spacing out my meals and grazing on healthy stuff throughout the day. Instead of the Special K snacks, I've been having more fruit or vegetables like celery & carrots with hummus. We typically eat healthy dinners as it is but I'm not being too strict with that meal.

I've used my Wii every day except for Sundays, which I'm treating as a day off. I'm still going for walks during the day and I managed to get out for one 3.5km run this past weekend. Not much but it's a start and I'm now hoping to get out at least twice a week this winter.

I haven't had a drop of wine during the week but have still indulged in a glass or two (or few) on the weekends. We haven't eaten out at all lately so I'm certain the meal planning has helped, too. I splurged yesterday and was able to satisfy my cravings for sweet treats. I've increased my water intake and cut out evening snacking. So far, so good!

My original goal was to lose a few pounds by the end of the month so I've already made that happen. My birthday is on January 31st and I would love to see 135lbs on the scale that day.

Yay ME!


Sunday, January 17, 2010

Double Crap.

I'm not anticipating a good weigh-in tomorrow seeing as I just ate my weight in deliciousness at our friend's baby shower. Is it possible to undo all my hard work as of late?! If so, I'm in trouble!

Mmmm... cupcakes.

Crap.


Clearly, I'm not quite getting this whole budget & meal planning thing. I stocked up on only the items need for this week as well as a handful of essentials like laundry detergent, paper towels, toilet paper, Liquid Plumber (damn post-pregnancy hair loss), etc. I was hoping to be below $100 but alas, I was not.

Total cost of groceries for this week? $133.30.

Sigh. Like D said, this is really our first few weeks doing this so I've got some time to practice and learn.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Meal Plan for the Week of January 17th

We're making a concerted effort these days to do the following:
  • Weekly Meal Planning
  • Grocery Shopping Once Per Week
  • Leftovers for Lunches
While we've always grocery shopped on a fairly regular basis, it was always when we were in desperate need of everything and we never went with a meal plan in hand. We'd toss out ideas as we walked the grocery store and in turn, we tossed anything & everything into the shopping cart. This meant we'd have a lot of random items, an abundance of fruit & vegetables and no clear direction. I found that I was throwing out a lot of produce AND making multiple (and costly) trips to the store each week to pick up miscellaneous items.

We're on our 3rd week of (official) meal planning and I just wrote out our grocery list for tomorrow, which is surprisingly small. Our shop last week was rather big so I'm happy to see a lot of carryover that I'll put to use this week. I'm also having a lot of fun with this because it's the push I need to peruse my cookbooks and magazines in a quest to try new things.

Here's a look at what's on the menu this week:

Sunday - Grilled cheese sandwiches, soup & salad.
*I'll be at a baby shower during the afternoon and D will likely meet a friend for brunch so we will have a simple dinner.

Monday - Southwestern Chicken & Black Bean Stew

Tuesday - Pork Scaloppine with Proscuitto, Sage & Caramelized Lemon

Wednesday - Campanelle with Italian Sausage & Leeks

Thursday - Spiced Lentil Soup with Minted Yoghurt

Friday - Classic but Quick Beef Stew

I'm pleased that I have almost all the ingredients needed for sides with the dishes above (salad, vegetables, etc.) as well as the majority of the fresh herbs, spices & other random ingredients. It's a nice feeling knowing that we'll be grabbing the essentials with minimal waste & cost. Each dish should also provide enough leftovers for D's lunches (again, a cost savings).

All recipes are from Fine Cooking and are in my rotation for the very first time. Check back for reviews!


Are We There Yet?

I'm not even asking for a vacation but rather a day off. I want a day where everything I do is the product of choice and not necessity. Sigh.

'Nuff said.

Friday, January 15, 2010

So Tragic

In light of the devastating events recently in Haiti, there is one news story I simply cannot stop thinking about and I'm find it's consuming my thoughts.

http://www.theglobeandmail.com/news/national/young-mothers-death-shocks-neighbourhood/article1430597/

When I first read this in the paper, I immediately started crying. My heart went out for the poor baby and the mother's family. I can't even get my head around this. I can't imagine M growing up without me in his life and having D have to tell him what happened. As it turns out, the young mother is recently separated from her husband and for whatever reason, he cannot or is unable to care for his two children. The 7 week old boy and a young girl are now in the custody of the Children's Aid Society. This absolutely breaks my heart.

When I first read about her death, I told D we had to help. If a trust account was opened in the young baby's name, we had to donate. To my knowledge, nothing has been set up. I'm scouring the newspapers daily looking for updates.

Ever since having M, I have become obsessively paranoid about our safety when on the roads or when we're out walking. When we go for our daily walk, I revert back to my childhood where you were told constantly to 'look left, look right and look left again' before crossing any street. I never cross when the hand is already flashing because I'm paranoid someone will come flying out of nowhere and through the intersection. I can't trust that someone will see us so I'm always very careful.

D can vouch that I have also become an insane backseat driver. I basically clutch the armrest constantly and I'm always barking out instructions to watch that car, the person on the bike or pedestrian crossing. I've become this annoying person who feels the need to yell the colour of the upcoming light so we aren't running a yellow too late. I'm constantly looking around and I'm pretty sure I make a comment about idiot drivers on a daily basis. Having a baby has greatly changed the way I drive and how I view other drivers. I'm always thinking of my precious cargo and have become so much more aware.

There are so many factors relating to this accident that we will never know and while I'll likely continue to look for more information, I'm sure this news will be considered 'old' soon. There are a lot of 'bigger & better' stories right now but this one still has a hold on me.

My thoughts go out to the poor children & family as well as the woman who hit her. She is an elderly woman and I'm certain she will never recover from the shock & tragedy of it all.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Worst. Mother. Ever.

Okay, I'm not but I feel like a horrible mother right now. I just made a big mistake.

M's "schedule" has been a bit of a mess all week and I finally thought we were back on track yesterday. He ate, played & happily napped (x3) yesterday and went to bed like a champ. Today started off in a similar fashion but just went downhill now.

Sometimes, I look at this little guy and have no clue what he's trying to tell me. He usually has a late afternoon snooze but save for a yawn well over an hour ago when we were out walking, he's been awake & active. He started fussing not too long ago so I put him down in his crib and that's when the screaming started.

I was hiding in the bathroom waiting for it to stop and when it didn't, I went into his room and scooped him up. My initial thought was that he wasn't tired and that he could last another two hours until bedtime. Um, not a chance! The second I put him on the floor downstairs to play, he started to whine. So, back upstairs to the crib we go because he's got to be tired. Sigh. I'm now listening to him flip between freaking out and fussing.

What was my mistake? Bringing him downstairs. I should have gone into his room, soothed him and left him to fall asleep. He is usually such a predictable kid that it really bothers me when I make such a silly mistake. I spend so much time reading his cues so that I can attempt to be one step ahead of him but I blew that one today.

We're 9 months into this kid's life and still making mistakes. The joy is that we learn from them everyday. I used to always say to D that having a baby is all about walking a fine line and windows of opportunity. You have to be careful to keep baby happy and content within what seem to be tiny windows of opportunity. If you miss the window, disaster will ensue. If you stray from the routine, all windows go... well, out the window.

There is NO better sound than the little baby sighs M is currently making as he sleeps.

City Survivor

Toronto Life is one of my favourite magazines and I love the monthly feature known as "The List" where a Canadian celebrity or well-known persona details the ten things he or she cannot live without.

Although I'm certainly not famous or well-known, here are ten things I can't live without (in no particular order):

1. Coffee

I love a good (but always nonfat) latte. We recently discovered a new coffee shop in our 'hood that makes great lattes and sells these fantastic salted chocolate chip cookies.

2. Alice Munro

I was a latecomer to the world of Alice Munro and wasn't introduced to her until university. She is my absolute favourite writer and I can honestly say that reading Lives of Girls and Women was a pivotal moment in my life.

3. Uggs

Yes, Uggs are ugly but they are damn comfortable. They're like a squishy heaven for my feet.

4. MINI

I love my MINI and I'll be sad to see her go in March. This was the most fun car I've ever owned and if I didn't need to consider a baby, I would be getting another one.

5. Secrets From Your Sister

Fabulous bra fitting boutique on Bloor Street (just west of Bathurst) that offers personalized service and great product. This is the only place I'll shop for bras.

6. BlackBerry

My BlackBerry is my lifeline. I use BlackBerry Messenger to stay connected to D throughout the day as well other friends & co-workers. I still get work related calls now and again so it's nice to stay involved. I take pictures of M almost daily using this phone and can quickly send them on to family.

7. Lip Balm

For as long as I can remember, I have been a lip balm addict. It morphed from a teenage love of Lip Smacker flavoured gloss to keeping staples like Blistex around. I cannot go to bed without putting lip balm on and can almost panic if I don't have any with me when out & about.

8. Kitchen-Aid Professional Stand Mixer

Though I don't use it that often anymore, I could never let go of my pink Kitchen-Aid mixer. It is a kitchen essential.

9. Perez Hilton

I can't even begin to admit how frequently I hit this website during the day. It's actually rather sickening. I'm obsessed with celebrity gossip and Perez is my first & favourite source. Man, that's pathetic.

10. John Frieda Frizz-Ease Serum

This is another product that I have used for years and years. I apply it religiously after every shower when my hair is still wet. Love this stuff and it's the only thing I've ever consistently used on my curls.

Slacking...


I've been quiet lately but to be honest, don't have much to say. I'm working on it though... stay tuned!

Monday, January 11, 2010

Um... Delicious?


Fine Cooking magazine is my Bible. It's the first place I look for recipes and I've never had a bad experience. Straightforward, easy-to-find ingredients and always delicious.

Fastest Barbecued Chicken

*This recipe calls for 8 skinless/boneless chicken thighs but I used a whole roasting chicken instead.

6 tbs. dark brown sugar
1 tbs. chile powder
2 tsp. dry mustard
Kosher salt
Whole chicken, rinsed & patted dry
3/4 cup tomato ketchup
1/4 cup low-salt soy sauce
1/4 cup cider vinegar
1 tbs. Dijon mustard
1/2 tsp. Chipotle Tabasco or other chipotle hot sauce; more to taste

Prep, rinse & dry your chicken. Stuff the cavity (optional) with lemon, crushed garlic and thyme or rosemary.

In a small bowl, combine 2 tbs. of the brown sugar with the chile powder, dry mustard and 1 tbs. salt. Rub the spice mix all over the chicken.

In a small saucepan, whisk the remaining 4 tbs. brown sugar with the ketchup, soy sauce, cider vinegar and Dijon mustard; bring to a boil. Lower the heat to a simmer and cook, stirring frequently, for 2 minutes to dissolve the sugar and blend the flavours. Remove from the heat and let cool slightly. Taste and add a pinch of salt, if needed. Stir in the Chipotle Tabasco, adding more to taste.

In a preheated 375 degree oven, cook the chicken according to directions. Typically, 15-20 minutes per 500g. Pull the chicken out and baste liberally with the sauce. Return the chicken to the oven for an additional 30 minutes.

Serve with the leftover sauce for dipping.

*Fastest Barbecued Chicken, Susie Middleton, FC #65, Scott Phillips

Two Steps Forward... One Step Back

Why is it so hard to stick to a diet on the weekend?!

Admittedly, I didn't do too badly. I ate alright and even got some Wii time in on Saturday. I didn't do any sort of exercise yesterday but I figured I deserved a day off. I did indulge in wine on both Saturday & Sunday night but I had said that was a part of my plan all along.

I woke up feeling guilty about the wine this morning so that's got to be a relatively good sign. I'm hoping I'll remember this feeling next weekend when I go to top up my glass. It just makes me feel like I undid all the good I did last week. I didn't stray from my eating plan once last week! I drank lots of water and used my Wii daily. Perhaps it was in my head but I actually felt like I was getting a little bit slimmer & trimmer.

I rented a copy of Jillian Michael's Fitness Ultimatum 2010 yesterday and am gearing up to pop it in the Wii. My goal is to do that workout (not that I even know what it entails yet) 5 times this week. I'll carry on with my healthy eating and let's hope I have another good week.

I'm desperate to weigh myself but I'm going to hold off for one more week! I just don't want to be disappointed.

Okay, I lied. I had to weigh myself as a part of the set up for the Fitness Ultimatum and it said...

141.5lbs

Yay! That's a loss of 3.5lbs since last week! Can that actually be true?!

I was feeling pretty excited until D commented that he isn't so certain about the accuracy of using the Wii as a scale. Sigh.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

5 Random Tidbits About Me

5. I can only tie shoelaces 'bunny ear' style.

4. I wear a tank top every day under whatever shirt I happen to be wearing that day. The kicker? I NEVER pull a tank top over my head and always step into it.

3. I like each forkful to contain a bit of whatever is on my plate.

2. I'm a lefty but do every thing with my right hand. That said, I can't use a right-handed can opener to save my life.

1. I'm obsessed with being on time yet I don't wear a watch.

Friday, January 8, 2010

BAM 101: Being a Mum


It's truly amazing how a woman's life changes the minute she pees on a stick and sees the big fat positive.

From that day forward, I obsessed about the health and well being of our baby. I have never eaten so well in my life or taken better care of myself. I was so aware of everything that went into my body and at the end of the day, I'd wonder if I did the fruit or veggie food group justice. I made sure I got lots of rest, oiled my tummy religiously, cut out alcohol & scaled back on caffeine. It was easy because I had the best reason ever to do so.

Fast forward to April 9th, 2009 when our little guy made his big appearance. He was a tiny baby at only 5lbs 15oz and with his birth, a whole new world of obsessions opened up. I obsessed about everything from feeding to pooping to sleeping. As he closes in on 9 months, I'm pretty pleased with how he's turned out. I still stress about things like how I don't really have him on a firm schedule yet or wondering if he's getting all the nutrients he needs now that he's eating more solids. But, all in all, he couldn't be more perfect.

Where am I going with all of this? Well...

M has been my sole focus for ages. I had 38 weeks & 2 days to make changes and get used to the idea of being Mum. I've had 9 months to continue implementing changes and adapting to my new life as a Mum. I've let things fall by the wayside and have no regrets. It's interesting how all that extra care you took with diet and exercise when pregnant seems to disappear the minute you bring your little one home from the hospital. It also becomes too easy to let your baby become your only focus and let relationships or friendships suffer.

I often joke that my life is like the movie 'Groundhog Day' where I live in 12 hour cycles that repeat twice daily, 7 days a week, months at a time. Sometimes I feel like I have nothing to talk about that doesn't involve a baby, belly or budget. Don't get me wrong because I absolutely love my life and the daily mundane it sometimes brings.

However, it doesn't mean I don't miss certain things from my not-so-distant pass. I miss the pick up & go at times. I miss not being able to pop out for a pint & bite with D whenever the mood hit us. I miss going out for drinks with co-workers & friends after work. I miss working and having another purpose. See, when you become a Mum, many of these things vanish into thin air. Friends stop calling after the initial cuteness wears off because they sense you're likely too busy to chat or pop out. I know I stopped calling people simply because I didn't think they'd want to hear about my "boring" day when they still had all the fun & pressure of work and a social life.

I can count on one hand the amount of times I've missed putting M to bed at night and for that, I have no regrets. I have no regrets about putting my family first on weekends when D is home and making sure that we have good quality time together. I have no regrets about the sacrifices I've made and will happily go without if it means M has every need met. I have no regrets giving up things because let's face it, my life isn't over... it's just beginning.

I think all mamas can relate to this feeling. I'm happy and with no regrets but damn, I'd love a day or night off to go out with girlfriends, have a few drinks, stay out late and sleep in the next day.





Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Losing My Mummy Tummy!

I'm only on day 3 of eating well, avoiding alcohol and using my Wii and so far, it's going great. So great, in fact, that I'm trying to keep myself from doing the body test on the Wii to see if I've lost any weight. I'm afraid of being disappointed but I'd love to know if my hard work is paying off!

I wasn't initially going to post my weight on here but I'm going to now. I think it'll help to keep me motivated and push me to keep it up.

Current Weight: 145lbs
Pre-Pregnancy Weight: 140lbs
Heaviest Weight During Pregnancy: 157lbs
Weight at 6 Week PP Check-Up: 138lbs.

Sigh. Within 6 weeks of having M, I managed to lose 17lbs PLUS an extra two. In a perfect world, I would have weighed 130lbs when I got pregnant so I started the whole thing off a good 10lbs overweight.

I know exactly why I gain weight, which is snacking, red wine, beer, big portions, weekends and general laziness (in no particular order). Double sigh. Those are a lot of bad habits to break.

My goal is to lose 10lbs before I go back to work in April, which is definitely NOT impossible. I've got a few secrets up my sleeve as to how I'm doing this (all healthy, I promise) and at my next weigh-in, I'll share them... but only if they worked!


Tuesday, January 5, 2010

New Year! New Me?

Today was originally slated to be the official start of my healthy eating & exercise regime but I'm happy to say I started yesterday.

I ate well & Wii'd for a few minutes every time M napped (3 times in total). If only I could see some results already...

It was also one of those "yay me!" days. You know, the sort of day when everything goes well and all family members are in good spirits, things get done and you end the day feeling like it was just a good day. M was in a great mood and played happily all day. He went down for naps with minimal fussing and took to his new 3 meals a day routine well. I managed to get 6 loads of laundry done and start the process of taking down the Christmas tree. I showered, brushed my teeth and had a coffee. I even got into bed at 10pm and read for a bit before bed... what more could I have wanted?! Yesterday was a great day!

I'm hoping for a repeat today!

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Mmm... Steak Sandwiches!


I can't take complete credit for this recipe but I did tweak it to suit our tastes. We've served these to friends & family during the summer barbeque season but today, I'm using leftover beef tenderloin.

What You Need:

Ciabatta
Steak (a cut like tenderloin or sirloin and preferably cooked to medium/medium rare)
Arugula
Provolone
Caramelized Onions
Garlic Mayonnaise

1. Prepare your garlic mayonnaise by adding a minced clove or two of garlic to enough mayonnaise to serve your crowd. Add in some fresh squeezed lemon juice, a dash of salt and a few good grinds of pepper. Set aside.

2. Slice 2-3 onions thinly and start to saute on low heat in a pan with equal amounts of butter & olive oil. Season with a bit of salt & pepper, if you like, and after the onions are soft & translucent. Add in a generous tablespoon of sugar. Continue cooking until the onions are brown & caramelized in texture.

3. Season your steaks and grill to your liking. I typically rub the meat with a bit of olive oil, salt & pepper. Slice thinly.

4. Assemble your sandwiches by spreading garlic mayonnaise on one half of your ciabatta. Top with arugula, steak and caramelized onions. Add your provolone and at this point, you can slide your sandwich back into the still warm barbeque to melt the cheese or put under the broiler of your oven for a few minutes. Top with the other half of ciabatta, slice into personal sized portions & serve!



Friday, January 1, 2010

Happy New Year!

I wouldn't say I'm the sort of person that makes New Year's resolutions but I'm pretty certain I say I'm going to do the same things year after year. You know... eat better, lose weight and those sorts of things. I never hold myself to them and they basically fall to the wayside.

So, I'm going to try something different this year. I'm going to set a few simple and small goals each month in the hopes that I'll follow through with them. Sounds easy, right? Well, we'll see!

My goals for January 2010:

1. Lose a few lbs by the end of the month. I don't own a scale so I'll go by the 'give' in my pants. It's time I dealt with my baby belly.
2. Cut out alcohol during the week. No more glasses of wine in the evening!
3. Set up & use my Wii Fit 5 times this month. Anything above is a bonus!
4. Finish the hall closet renovation.
5. Actually get 30 loads of laundry out of a container of detergent. I can't get over how often it seems like I'm buying this stuff.

See? Nothing to strenuous. I'm going to give myself until Tuesday, January 5th to start.

Stay tuned! I'm being held accountable here so I hope I do it!